so i'm not arguing, i'm trying to understand what he's saying. i am repeating exactly what he means right back to him. but he gets pissy, says i'm wrong, and when i try to explain myself he starts running away. i call down the hallway and try following him "please don't walk away from me"
instead of reacting like a normal human being he steps toward me with gritted teeth, raises his voice at me. i try to explain myself, he runs and shuts the bedroom door so hard that the house shakes. i'm bothered, scared, say he's acting like a psychopath. he screams fuck off at me at the top of his lungs.
and when we have to sit down to discuss later, he tells me how he shows he that he loves me by not forcing me to get a job (when i have extreme social anxiety and depression) and how he does so much for me. and i just tell him this is it. i can't pretend like i want to try to be his friend anymore when he treats me like shit at least once a week.