MDSZ novel, spoilers, non-con, happiness
Reading #MDSZ was worth gritting my teeth during even more horrifying rape "play" from LWJ (it was a dream, but aren't rape fantasies usually the other way around? a way to give up control, not commit violence?) just for that little scene with my loves Xiao Xingchen & Song Lan, back when they were still happy. SL hating touch, yet letting XX touch him w/o flinching... <3 It also gave some interesting background for Xue Yang's treatment of SL.