larissa ❄️☃️🐧 @lightning@fandom.ink

#introductions not new to mastodon, but haven't had anything to post for a long time. happy to find a fandom instance!

i'm larissa and i spend way too much writing. the rest of the time is spent playing video games and procrastinating on writing. mostly into final fantasy, but can also be found yelling about fallout, critical role, mass effect, pokémon, and extremely obscure video game soundtracks no one's ever heard of. if you want vg music recs, hit me up.

i have spent all evening trying to find a new hosting provider for my fansites (since the host i've had for 10+ years doubled their cost, thanks guys)

and lemme fucking tell you, this is just as annoying a process as it was in 2007

i swear to god there is nothing like following a fic that gets updated once a year (MAYBE) (i don't even think it was updated last year??) but each update is *so good* that i don't even CARE

(and also i've been following this fic for, like, a decade?? WORTH IT.)

SCREECHES IS THAT A NUKUME DORI UPDATE IN MY INBOX

GOODBYE PRODUCTIVITY HELLO REREADING MY FAVORITE FIC EVER

i spent all day finally pulling together my wordcount stats for 2018 BUT AT LEAST IT'S FINALLY DONE https://diali.dreamwidth.org/2019/01/16/2018-in-review-charts-ahoy.html

tbh considering this disaster of a graph is what made me set it down two weeks ago, i'm glad i was able to come back to it at all... charts are not my friend. BUT TODAY. TODAY I HAVE CONQUERED. ⚔️ 📊

two minutes later: hey i wonder if it's that add-on that affects every single website i visit that i updated just this morning.................

firefox is doing this fun thing where all my new tabs and websites open to blank pages so i guess it's time to play the "which add-on is acting up" game

so i had a dream last night that, even *in* the dream, was an idea for a new original story. when i woke up i wrote down everything i could remember, along with most of a plot, and even wrote out the ending.

i'm now reading it back over, and while it's gonna need some work, it's not half bad! thanks, dream!me!

ALSO: I HAVE A TITLE. AND CHARACTER NAMES. i don't even have that for the story i've been noodling on for a year!!

the further i get into part 2 of the epilogue the more upset i get. I PLAYED RED DEAD REDEMPTION, ROCKSTAR, I KNOW YOU’RE JUST GOING TO TAKE ALL THIS AWAY FROM ME!!! WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME GO THROUGH THIS!!! WHY!!!

my heart hurts and it hasn’t even happened yet 😭

i have gone from being a bank robber to having a literal goddamn bank loan. what in the goddamn fuck is this game.

me @ 4pm: okay if i sit down at the computer now i can probably get a half hour of writing in before six
me @ 5pm, having accomplished absolutely nothing past fucking around on the internet: i hate it when i'm right

dear rdr2:
why is the “get on horse” button the same as the “CHOKE OUT THE NEAREST PASSERBY AND IMMEDIATELY BECOME WANTED FOR AGGRAVATED ASSAULT” button
no love, me

all of this said: i'm like 15 hours in don't fucking spoil me for anything or so help me god. now, back to it...

whatever complaints i have about the gameplay (and i have a lot), the level of simulation this game goes to is unreal. there are a lot of tedious things in rdr2, but the end result is that it makes the entire world seem far more real. a lot of games try the open world thing, but one of the reasons a lot of them are bad at it is because they can't hide the seams - you know you're just doing this shit because it's a game. the level of immersion in rdr2 goes a long way towards hiding those things.

that said i had one of the most incredible experiences ingame earlier. i came across a random stranger on the road, injured so badly he fell off his horse. i picked him up, put him on mine, and headed to the nearest town so he could see a doctor...

WHO FUCKING AMPUTATED HIS ARM RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.

LIKE. THIS WASN'T A STORY MISSION. THIS WAS A TOTALLY RANDOM ENCOUNTER. I COULD HAVE LET HIM BLEED OUT ON THE ROAD. INSTEAD I SAW HIS ARM GET SAWED OFF.

reasons red dead redemption 2 is a good video game: i had a duel on top of a moving train, won, and jumped down onto my horse running alongside it

reasons rdr2 is a bad video game: i constantly have to feed arthur snack cakes to keep him from being underweight, to say nothing of keeping all my guns on the fucking horse and making me get them off EVERY SINGLE TIME. also the fact that it took me ten hours to unlock fast travel, jesus fucking christ

now that i don't have to write a ton every day i seem to be developing an actual sleep schedule....... who even am i